I noe what my dreams are..
I noe the path and ways to achieve it...
The oppurtunity seems so near yet I am not able to reach it...
I feel that time is running out..
If I dun go after my dream now, I may not be able to fulfil it ever..
With that, I constanly pray that luck and strength will be on my side...
Till the day come when I am able to walk with my heads up high...
I will keep being strong and will always remind myself of the kind of life I want to live...
I will get what I want...
With or without anybody's help...

I woke up this morning being greeted by body aches and terrible headaches...

I keep telling myself that i will make it to school because today is my special dae...

SO i get up from my bed, made my way to the toilet to take a shower and stared into the mirror...

I ask myself again, I dun look like I am 20, i dun feel like i'm 2o...

I wish myself Happy Birthdae and continue to get ready...

When I was putting on my make up, I keep thinking, I was given the oppurtunity to live for 20 years, what would I do with the remaining years that I am going to live through..

Every year, during my birthdae, I set a few new goals for me to work on.. I have yet to do mine for this year but I roughly have an idea what my goals will be..

Whether I will achieve it by the time I turn 21, that is different matter..

Aniwae, Last year, my goals are..

1) Continue my studies to Polytechnic
2) Travel(yet to be fulfilled)
3) Spend more time with my siblings
4) start saving

the goals may seem like a cliche and if u ask everybody else, they will come up with similar goals as I mentioned...

I am the type who goes for what I want..and that characteristics get where I am today..I work my ass of to get to poly even though it was a long route...

I know what I want to do.. I know where I want to be in a few years time and I know how to get it...It's just that I dun get the oppurtunity yet..Luck is always not on my side..That is what I have to work on...

At the end of the day, I believe that all efforts will be rewarded...I am waiting for the reward...

Aniway, To those who wish me, Thank u so much!!!!
For Mcafe team, Thanks for the present!!!
To bf, Thanks for the great day I spend with you tho we can't celebrate on my actual bdae...

The second week of school and I'm feeling the blues...

I'm already in my second semester and the truth is I feel it will be an interesting semester..

My class is made up of all sports science students so we have a lot of sports professional here..

We have national hockey player, diver/martial artist, the navy guy, track and field coach, badminton player, the dj master,mr silent killer and etc...


They are interesting bunch of people..Probably coz we are sports people so naturally we tend to be loud and enthusiastic bunch..

i learn new things from them..abt the sports they do and their past experiences..its refreshing to know that there are other sports enthusiasts apart from myself..

Last friday me and some of my classmates played street soccer in school and I was reminded of the times when we played soccer in Simei wif my SM friends..

Miss those times..

This sem, i'm in the same class as fifi,xiao xuan,zul and wati..and just across the other side is khai and kecik's class..so its great..closer..

Of coz the level is so noisy coz its filled wif sports students......

However...we have to do triple science dis semester..

Good luck to us..

I really hope this semester would be better...I have to at least get 2.8 for GPA..

That's what I am aiming for...

Wish me luck!!!


Aniways, there are a lot of things that I really want to get out of my chest and write it down here...

My heart tells me to do so but my brain tells me not to..

How eh?


Then who do I tell all this to?

Firstly, I would like to apologise for not updating my blog..

It's not that I have been busy lately but its just that I have been unable to open up and share wat i'm going through lately..

Its nothing worth writing or worrying abt..

Its the same old same old problems...

Fasting month have been great and Hari Raya was great too..However I just wished I could celebrate it with dad and mom..

Both of them are busy with their own things so me and my siblings couldn't celebrate Hari Raya with them..

End up the 4 of us celebrate with my grandma...

Its owaes like dat...I've gotten used to it...

Hari raya dun feel like a special day to me animore..though it should be..How can it be special wen ur parents are not there wif u..

Aniwae, wat's past is past...Now im looking forward to celebrate it with my friends...

Mom got her pay yesterdae and she gave $150 for me to buy a new phone..

she said its a bdae present in advance..truthfully, i regret taking the money coz it just feels awkward buying expensive things like hp not using my money..

When it comes to expensive gadgets, usually i get it wif my own money but it just feels diff...though mum said it is a present

When to Bedok with dad yesterday to check out the phones..With $150 u dun get much choices in terms of phone models..

Dad suggested i appied for a line..student plan..so I did...

Lg cookie in pink..the colour wasn't my favourite...I opted for Brown but Dad said its ugly so i go for pink....

it doesnt matter wat colour it is or wat model..wat matter most is who bought it for me...My mum is not the type who always buys me things esp hps..but i greatly appreciate it..

Thanks MOM

My first present...and its still 17 more daes to my bdae..hehehehehe...

But i guess this year i wont be celebrating wif someone coz he will be in camp...Haizzzz.......

Till then..Adios!!!!


Lurve u all!!!

Save the Earth!!!!!!!!

Months feels like days....

Felt like just celebrated Hari Raya and now, it's the fasting month already...

So fast...

Exams is nearing to an end...After that got to focus on work...

Why do i get the feeling that I am not going to enjoy my holidays...

hmmm...

Holidays is supposed to be spend wif families and friends...Meant for us students to just chill out and relax

But i could foresee that I am going to spend most of my team at McCafe Parkway...

With one of my colleagues and strong man of cafe going for his NS soon, looks like the schedule will be hectic...

Just got to be prepared for that...I still need to go and buy my referee uniform soon and start refreeing..

But with the condition of my leg, i doubt so i can run that mush so i doubt so I can start refereeing any game any time soon..

And did I say, my grandma already 'booked' me to help her baked the kuihs coz she sick, so she needs me to bake them...

Haizzzzz....I dun realli look forward to holidays...I just wish I could run away from everything and go somewhere peaceful and quiet and destress there....

But i can't..Now, I haf to focus on recharging my"batteries" and do all these...

"that" person is going for his NS soon...I wonder how I am going to spend my days without him..

Its gonna take some getting used to...We can meet on weekends provided I finish work early...

"that" person is so sweet that if he is chupa chups, I would have eaten him up...

This is why...

We went to Charles and Keith during my break yesterday coz I wanted to buy this particular bag that I have been eyeing since i saw it...

It costs about 60 bux...when we reach dere, I couldn't make up my mind whether to buy or not..coz if I buy I am left wif 40 bux till next pay...

I am very fickle minded...my heart tells me to buy bt my brain tells me not to...

So we went out of the shop and go to other shops so that I can thiink and decide..

I got tired and we went to sit somewhere near charles and keith...He was standing behind me..so I continued thinking...

abt 5 mins or so, when I turned around, he disappeared.. I was shocked so I look around but he was nowhere in sight...

So i stand up and walk and was dialing his num...I was a lil bit angry coz i tot he decided to leave me there and go home...

Then I saw him at charles and keith...

So i say let's go...Coz i decided not to buy...

And he says why do u come here, I'm going to buy u the bag..

I was speechless and guilty coz i just ruined his surprises for me and I caught him red handed...but on top of that I am touched not only coz he got me the bag but bcoz he wanted to surprise me and its not even our anniversary or my bdae...

Just the thought of surprising me really makes me smile comes to think of it...

Its not a love story but its a random act of all...I am grateful that he did that...However, i do feel guilty coz he had to buy me the bag...

Everytime when he buys me something, it makes me happy and uneasy at the same time...

Even though we have been together for 4 years plus, I never get used to him buying me things..

I love him no matter what...hehehehehe

Im watching America gt talent

As per normal, lots of weirdos...

Then came this guy, he's dressed slppily, he's an unemployed farmer...

wen the judges ask him wat he's job was he said that he catches chicken for a living and the rest of the audiences starts giggling..

even the judges giggles also...

The moment he starts singing, everyone just shut up coz he gt a fantastic country voice

Fantastic like wow!! he sang if tommorow never came...

his voice and performance was so moving...

i was shocked actualli coz i tot he's another weirdo...

just enering the competition for attention but i was wrong...the audiences and judges was wrong...

I guess that's wat they say " never judge a book by its cover" ...

I just wish that he cn get success fro being on the show coz he totally deserves it..

Wish him good luck!!

at the end of the day, sincerity matters!

Wednesday morning are never great....

Hate it!!!

What's worst I'm down with like the worst injuries ever....

I strained mybhamstring for the past 3 weeks...

I didn't go to the physio or massage or watever...

I let it be and just ice it every now and then...

Have been bearing the pain all this while and I tot it was just a normal strain and it get well soon..

But....

I was wrong...

before running the 8 round, one of my teammates told me that i had a bruise on my leg...i just went ahead to run coz i tot it was a normal bruise...


As I was running the usual 8 rounds, had to stop at 4 round coz i couldn't bear the pain oreadi....

went to the Physio...and she said its a muscle fibre tear...She check my injuries and den put this electrical thing on my injured area... She said electricity will flow into the injured area and minimize the internal bleeding and the bruise...

So i had to stay ther for abt 1 hr or so...

the physio told me to come back regularly and no physical activities for 1 or 2 mths to allow the injuries to fully recover....

When I heard that I tot i'm going to cry or shout coz its so frustrating...

Cannot play soccer for 1 or 2 mths!! are u kidding me!! God!!!

but I have to listen to her advice ryte...

Hmmm....I hate this!

Haven' t told my parents yet and didn't plan to....

I get into trouble if I do...

What a bad thing to happen when it's so near to fasting mth!!

Benci lah!

E37k Salon...